i am the singking ship, so what are you?

mellodramas

You’re
the monologue its unbreakable

Intimacy
oh so intimate,

Twist
baby twist

Can’t
you see you’re raising sins when we’re so young?

Like
those distortions that cause me such an orgasm

Ok,
change the direction you know we have to dance

All
day long

We’ll
stand up all, you Einstein garage flavored plath

Don’t
stare at the bloody queen

Cause
you are the Norma of the society

You
are the beat of our drama

C’mon
show me show me

How
to fight on the dance floor

I.N.D.O.N.E.S.I.A

satu-satunya hal yang membuat saya tersenyun menjadi seorang yang lahir di indonesia adalah keindahan alamnya, hingga hal itu mengantarkan saya kepada sebuah keyakinan bahwa tuhan memang sedang tersenyum saat indonesia tercipta.
selain hal itu semuanya hanya serenada hipokrit dari mahluk-mahluk penjilat.

i love indonesia
i hate inside

session one

moment when I say my forgiveness you’re remain to be kept quiet is mute

he who is your side vanish your tear

need I realize that all nowadays have happened

I and you have separated in world differ

nowadays I have volunteer although in pain

thou with x’self old ones wait

newly I realize all that nowadays have happened

I and thou have separated in world differ

you don’t cry all that happened at me

continue your life is I will be good here

nowadays I have volunteer although in pain

thou with x’self old ones wait

my soul was losed but do not my love

will be devoted always remain in your side

my soul have losed but not my heart

always at your side to take care of you

song to a " friend"

oh god dont dream is over

manusia jenis apakah yang selalu terjebak dalam kejadian-kejadian masa lalu yang terus menghantui. manusia jenis apakah yang selalu hidup di dalam mimpi-mimpi semu. gila!!! mungkin,tapi yang pasti saya punya sebuah anggapan bahwa seorang manusia takkan bisa hidup tanpa bermimpi, mungkin hidup di dunia nyata yang penuh luka dan gores tak cukup setidaknya masih bisa bermimpi bukan.
dan selama bertahun belakangan kenapa saya selalu bermasalah dengan jarak yayayayayaya mungkinkah itu penyebab saya menjadi pemimpi, well hanya tuhan yang mampu. dengan bermimpi setidaknya kita punya pilihan, menjadi kaya,ganteng,populer menjadi apapun mungkin. mungkin tanpa mimpi hidup ini menjadi statis tanpa makna, mungkinkah wright bersaudara bisa membuat kapal terbang tanpa bermimpi menggapai langit dan punya sayap. mimpi………………..huh apakah sebuah metoda tuhan untuk menghidupkan hidup manusia.

enolasangmaya

apakah menjadi pintar itu harus menghadapi sebuah jamuan teori dengan tumpukan buku yang berjubel……
apakah untuk menjadi dewasa harus menghadapi sebuah elegi yag cenderung terasa seperti dilema semu……
apakah untuk menjadi bahagia harus rela menjadi budak birokrasi ala indonesia yang berbau feodal……….
apakah menunggu sang waktu datang harus mengorbankan sebuah kebahagiaan yang sudah menungguku……
tunggu……apakah aku mengatakan kebahagiaan???
aku belum pernah mengenal dia,bertemu pun belum!!!




February 12th, 2007 by teenagebastardos

hitam putih adalah harmoni

kau adalah angka sembilan

aku adalah angka minus satu

dan sepuluh adalah kesempurnaan

untuk dapat menjadi sepertimu

aku harus menjadi sempurna

THE DISCOGRAPHY (manic street preachers)

CD Singles

* New Art Riot (EP - 1992 re-issue)
* Motown Junk
* You Love Us (Heavenly)
* Stay Beautiful (1997 re-issue)
* Love's Sweet Exile (1997 re-issue)
* You Love Us (1997 re-issue)
* Slash 'N' Burn (1997 re-issue)
* Motorcycle Emptiness (1997 re-issue)
* Theme From MASH (Suicide Is Painless) (promotional copy)
* Little Baby Nothing (1997 re-issue)
* From Despair To Where (promotional copy)
* La Tritesse Durera (Scream To A Sigh)
* Roses In The Hospital
* Life Becoming A Landslide
* Faster
* Faster (1995 US demonstration copy)
* Revol (CD1)
* She Is Suffering (CD1)
* A Design For Life (CD1)
* Everything Must Go (CD1)
* Kevin Carter (CD1)
* Australia (CD1)
* If You Tolerate This Your Children Will Be Next (CD1)
* The Everlasting (CD1)
* You Stole The Sun From My Heart (CD1)
* Tsunami (CD1)
* Masses Against The Classes
* So Why So Sad (CD1)
* Found That Soul (CD1)
* Ocean Spray (CD1)
* Let Robeson Sing (CD1)
* There By The Grace Of God (CD1)
* There By The Grace Of God (CD2)
* The Love Of Richard Nixon (CD1)
* The Love Of Richard Nixon (CD2)
* Empty Souls (CD1)
* Empty Souls (CD2)
* God Save The Manics (EP - cover signed by Nicky Wire, April 2005)
* Your Love Alone Is Not Enough (CD1)
* Your Love Alone Is Not Enough (CD2)
* Autumnsong (CD1)
* Autumnsong (CD2)
* Indian Summer (CD1)
* Indian Summer (CD2)

Other Singles

* Suicide Alley (red 7" vinyl bootleg copy of original)
* UK Channel Boredom (flexidisc)
* Stay Beautiful (US cassette)
* Stay Beautiful (limited edition poster bag 12" vinyl)
* Slash 'N' Burn (limited edition 12" vinyl with art print)
* The Love Of Richard Nixon (DVD)
* Empty Souls (DVD)
* Underdogs (7" vinyl)
* Your Love Alone Is Not Enough (7" vinyl)
* Autumnsong (7" vinyl)
* Indian Summer (7" vinyl)

CD Albums

* Generation Terrorists
* Gold Against The Soul
* The Holy Bible (picture disc)
* Everything Must Go
* This Is My Truth Tell Me Yours (embossed case)
* Know Your Enemy
* Forever Delayed (with bonus CD - booklet signed by Nicky Wire, April 2005)
* Lipstick Traces
* Lifeblood
* The Holy Bible (10th Anniversary Edition - US release)
* Everything Must Go (10th Anniversary edition)
* Send Away The Tigers (US version)
* Journal For Plague Lovers (Deluxe 2CD edition, signed by James Dean Bradfield, Sean Moore and Nicky Wire) New!

Other Albums

* Generation Terrorists (US cassette)
* Gold Against The Soul (US cassette)

Bootlegs

* Tortured Genius (CD)
* Street Preaching (CD)
* Lipstick Traces (a friend-recorded cassette of this)
* The Return Of The Preachers (CD)

Solo Projects - James Dean Bradfield

* The Great Western (CD album)
* That's No Way to Tell A Lie (single - CD1)
* That's No Way to Tell A Lie (single - CD2)
* That's No Way to Tell A Lie (single - 7" vinyl)
* An English Gentleman (single - CD)
* An English Gentleman (single - first 7" vinyl)
* An English Gentleman (single - second 7" vinyl)

Solo Projects - Nicky Wire

* I Killed The Zeitgeist (CD album)
* Break My Heart Slowly (single - CD)
* Break My Heart Slowly (single - 7" vinyl)

POETRY FOR RICHEY

"Ill take a picture of you to remember how good you looked."Msp.


Seven Years On

What an odd thing -
it's been seven years now
since you went away.
It seems as though
you were just here with us
enriching our little lives.

What a sad thing -
it's been seven years now
since you went away.
How many more
of these anniversaries
will we have to endure?



[This is about all the attention I got for this site in early 2002.]
The Predator

There's my name,
in that magazine!
That's my work,
on that website page!
It's my site,
the BBC linked to!

I love the fame, the glory
I'm all over the place -
This is my 15 minutes!

But I feel so alive
because others
are so in pain.



Yes, I Saw Him

Yes, I saw him on the cover
of the magazine I was reading.
He had just come out of hospital
after that breakdown he had.
I thought that was very sad.

Yes, I saw him early one morning
in the lobby of the hotel.
He had checked out of his room
but I couldn't see any bags.
I thought that was rather odd.

Yes, I saw him on the news
on television a few weeks later.
The reporter said he had just
vanished into thin air.
I don't know what to think now.

(Written - February 2001)
Five Years On

My calendar tells me it's been
five years since you left.
It doesn't begin to feel like
that can be possible.

Sometimes I wish that time had not
moved on and that it was still '95.
I'm afraid people will think I'm mad
for hanging on to your memory this long.

I spend hours of my life trying
to figure where you might be.
Every piece of info I can get
is read and analysed for clues.

I console myself with the songs
your friends wrote about you.
And hope that next year my calendar
won't tell me it's six years on.


[This is about the season I call the "Richey Days", which starts on 14 January and ends on 17 February. (Note - this poem is NOT intended to be taken entirely seriously!)]
Richey Days

This is the time of year
I call the Richey Days.
From mid-January
to mid-February.
The time to remember him
and wonder where he's gone.
And if he's coming back.

This is the time of year
to copy Richey's ways.
From heavy eyeliner
to potatoes and grapes.
The time to cut yourself up
and burn your arm with fags.
And drink too much vodka.

I wonder if anyone will
be staying in room 516
of the London Embassy -
like he did before he left us.

I wonder if anyone will
be keeping watch outside his flat
at Anson Court in Cardiff -
as if he might be going home.

This is the time of year
I call the Richey Days.
From mid-January
to mid-February.
The time to think why he went
and wonder where he is.
And pray that he's okay.



[Please forgive me for sounding so much like a "cult of Richey" member in the following poem. I wasn't doing very well back then. I'm better now.]
Richey's Birthday

today should be your birthday
twenty-eight years of life on earth
unless it all ended months ago.

was the last thing you saw
a cold river
the last thing you did -
to jump in?

you were supposed to be the person
who would cut and bleed himself
to relieve my misery.

you left me behind
to do it for myself
you left us all behind
to remember you today.


[This is about my trips to Blackwood. Not specifically about Richey, but close enough.]
A Manic Street Preacher Fan Visits Blackwood, Wales

You can get there on the number twenty-six
bus from Cardiff.
You pass Caerphilli and it's castle
along the route.
You can see the Welsh mountains
from the motorway.
You finally stop at the little station
above the town.

I went to that rather unknown
spot on the earth.
I once ate a burger with Welsh cheese
at the Dorothy Cafe.
I looked in the High Street shops
and bought the Argus.
I haven't the nerve enough to find
the Edwards' salon.

There's not much in that tiny village
for a visitor.
There's not even a lot for the people
who live there.
There's not much reason for anyone
to know of it.
There's only the fact that this is where
the band is from.

Ten-year tragedy of missing Manic

Richey Edwards, guitarist and lyricist for The Manic Street Preachers, vanished 10 years ago, on 1 February 1995. His disappearance remains one of the most tragic mysteries in rock music.

Manic Street Preachers with Richey Edwards (second left)
Richey Edwards (second left) was revered by legions of devoted fans
For his devoted fans, Richey Edwards was an inspired and inspiring poet, a man who articulated their desperation and despair, who shouted the things most kept hidden.

The Manic Street Preachers may only have become stadium-conquering rock giants since his disappearance - but Edwards was the figurehead for their first, dangerous and dazzling incarnation.

Edwards did not feature in the original line-up of the band, though. Singer/guitarist James Dean Bradfield, bassist Nicky Wire and drummer Sean Moore were originally accompanied by a rhythm guitarist called Flicker.

But Edwards replaced Flicker in time for the band's self-financed debut, Suicide Alley, after designing the record's artwork.

The Manic Street Preachers
The Manics continued as a trio after Edwards disappeared
After becoming a full-time member, Edwards became a critical part of the band, writing lyrics and playing guitar - though in many concerts, he was not actually plugged in.

But the fiercely intelligent Edwards - who name-checked writers such as Sylvia Plath, George Orwell and Philip Larkin - battled depression, alcohol problems, eating disorders, and self-harm.

By the time the band released their third album, The Holy Bible, in October 1994, Edwards had been admitted to hospital with depression.

But in his last interview a few months later, seemed to be making plans for the future.

1 February 1995: Edwards walks out of the Embassy Hotel in London in the early morning, ahead of the band's US tour to promote The Holy Bible.

In the following days, police issue a missing person alert and his parents, Graham and Sherry, plead for their son to let them know he is safe and well.

15 February 1995: Police discover Edwards' car in a car park near the Severn Bridge near Bristol - a notorious suicide spot. The discovery leads many to believe he has killed himself. The rest of the band stop touring and recording.

December 1995: The band play their first concerts since Edwards' disappearance as a trio, performing support slots for The Stone Roses on their UK stadium tour.

May 1996: The Manic Street Preachers release their first music since Edwards' disappearance. A Design For Life reaches number two in the UK singles chart. The album Everything Must Go follows.

James Dean Bradfield of the Manic Street Preachers
The band have become stadium stars since the disappearance
February 1997: The Manics win best band and best album for Everything Must Go at the Brit Awards.

March 1997: A fan says she saw Edwards in the hippy resort of Goa, India. Interpol are alerted but do not track him down.

December 1998: Graham and Sherry Edwards fly to the Spanish island of Fuerteventura six weeks after reports a man fitting their son's description has been seen in a bar called Underground. The report comes to nothing.

February 2000: Edwards' sister Rachel makes an emotional TV appeal five years after the disappearance. "I'd just like to say to him if he is able to listen that we do love him very much and we'd like him to come back - me, mum and dad," she said.

February 2001: The band play a concert in the Cuban capital, Havana - the first contemporary western rock band to play there.

February 2002: On the seventh anniversary of his disappearance, police offer Edwards' parents the opportunity to sign a death certificate. They refuse.

The Big Issue magazine, which supports homelessness charities, prints the last known picture of Edwards in a fresh plea for information.

March 2002: A pair of trainers containing human bones washed up on the banks of the River Severn have no link to Edwards, police say.

June 2003: The last song written by Edwards - a song called Judge Y'Self, which was to have been used for the Judge Dredd film soundtrack - is released on the B-side compilation Lipstick Traces.

A skeleton found by the River Severn is not Edwards, tests reveal.

August 2004: The Manics' seventh studio album, Lifeblood, features a song dedicated to Edwards called Cardiff Afterlife.

February 2005: The remaining Manic Street Preachers members continue to pay a quarter of the band's royalties into an account held in his name.

Let robeson sing

Nama Robeson mungkin terdengar asing bagi beberapa orang di Indonesia. termasuk saya, pada awalnya saya sendiri sebelum saya menemukan sebuah litelatur bahwa lagu ini menceritakan tentang seorang kulit hitam yang merupakan Aktor, Atlit, Pengacara, sekaligus Penyanyi yang bernama lengkap Paul LeRoy Bustill Robeson, dia meninggal pada usia 77 tahun disebabkan serangan Stroke, namun tidak sedikit pihak yang beranggapan bahwa dia di "assassinated" oleh Pemerintahan Amerika Serikat . Sepanjang hidupnya Paul Robeson merupakan tokoh yang menyuarkan Civil Right dan tergabung dalam banyak Organisasi kemanusiaan. Untuk urusan lagu, menurut saya lirik yang digunakan oleh band asal Wales ini terdengar "straight" dalam memuji almarhum, seperti line yang disuarakan "Can anyone make a difference anymore? Can anyone write a protest song?" seakan menyerukan bahwa sekarang sudah tidak ada musikus yang bisa membuat perbedaan dengan lagu lagu ciptaanya. Dan disaat mereka mengkiritk Amerika dengan "Liberty lost still buried today, beneath the lie of the CIA", merupakan kata kata yang menurut saya sangat berani. Vokal James Dean yang halus namun tegas membuat saya terlanun saat lagu ini disuarakan, dan ketiga anggota Manics turut berkontribusi dalam penulisan lagu ini. Seperti yang disebutkan pada lirik diatas, Robeson merupakan tokoh yang kontroversial pada masanya, seperti saat dia berkunjung ke Uni Soviet dan jatuh cinta pada paham sosialisnya (yang mungkin salah satu alasan Manics membuat lagu ini untuknya) . Salah satu gebrakan terbesar Robeson adalah melakukan sambungan telepon dari New York dimana dia berada, ke South Wales dimana dia berbicara dengan para penambang dan keluarganya. Perbincangan yang berlangsung digunakannya untuk mengkritik tajam pemerintahan Imperialis dan Kapitalis Amerika Serikat, akibat dari kritik tersebut adalah dicabutnya Passport Paul Robeson.